Trusting God's Heart

So looking back over the past six years (which is significant to me since I got fired in October of 2003 for sharing my faith) I have been able to trace God's hand at work. Now I am like okay I don't quite see your hand in all of what is going on. And will the hurt ever go away that I am experiencing? And can good come out of all of this? I have to trust God's heart and ask that He shows me His love and encouragement. It is hard to trust God's heart when you are in the midst of hurt that you did not see heading your way.