So yes here I go again. I am applying for jobs as usual - my life story so it seems. I am thankful that I have been able to be at Navarro College because working with college students is something I have always wanted to do. I am glad that I have been - it has been very enjoyable and I want to continue working with college students. This is my passion and this is where my heart is. I have been applying at colleges, but they are very slow. So what next? I am going to look for work I can do, but I always hate when you apply and apply and you don't hear back or they say we have no work now - grrrr. I can't live like this. I have to pay the rent.
I think the hardest part is the waiting and the not knowing how long it is going to take. Like I said I have been here before. I would worry as I applied and contacted places, but you know what I do not like that and I do not want to do that this time around. I want to trust that God has a plan for my life. I want to trust that He has a purpose for me in this world. There have been times when I have just wanted to curl up and die - take me home already so I don't have to experience this. But you know what not anymore. I want to see what God has in store for me. I want to see where He leads me. I want to have a purpose in what He gives me to do. I love that there are doors He has shut - even though it was painful at the time, I am glad I didn't get some things I applied for and even interviewed for. I wouldn't have had the wonderful experiences I have had this past year. And have I mentioned that I love working with college students and that it is my heart and passion and I truly believe I am called to do this? I remember a time when I felt like I was just drifting (when I was teaching K-12) and it wasn't my passion - but this is different. I do not hate my job - yes there are times when it gets stressful (like later today it will be gradefest 2009 lol), or during the spring semester Human Lifespan Development kicked my bootay (but hey I read the entire 19 chapters in 16 weeks in addition to everything else I was doing). So when someone tells me I should go get training to do something else I ask why. Why? What prey tell would I train to do. Certainly not nursing. That would require me to like science and to do better in science as well as math. Ummm no I think not. Plus hello I needed a tutor for Algebra II at my community college (Chip - he wanted me to go to Europe with him lol).
So putting all my ramblings aside it boils down to this - I so far have nothing on the job front, do not know how long it will take, still would like to find a full time position at a college, and I do not want to be a prisoner trapped with the kitties in my own duplex. Don't get me wrong I love them, but I do not wish to spend 24/7 with them. I want to be able to find employment, a travel opportunity so I can get a change of scenery, or a travel/work opportunity. I also am not going to sit around on my blessed assurance and worry. This time I am going to choose to trust in God. Trust is a choice. And that is what I choose. I choose to trust in God for what He will do. Not saying it will be easy, but I choose trust.
Okay that is all. If you have made it this far past all my ramblings then you get an A for the day (or a sticker - your choice lol).
Here's a cool pic for you:

That's me with Paul Rodriguez the comedian, my friend Ted and some girl whose name I do not remember.
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