Trust His Heart

Today's song is Trust His Heart. Apparently it has been sung by numerous people. Babbie Mason, Cynthia Clawson, and possibly Ray Boltz. Wow Allan totally listened to some interesting music - when I was in high school it was all about Stryper. Of course I am from California so it may have been a California thing lol Tennessee people may have been deeper thinkers than the Californians lol

The low was 84 degrees. The point of sleeping inside was what? lol Lindsay make room - if it's cooler in Oregon me and my zoo (2 cats, 3 gerbils and the turtle) will pack up the car and head west. It's H-O-T in T-E-X-A-S and it is not a dry heat. My poor little Ella - all black kitty and she has to stretch herself out because it is hot. Although it could be worse - it could be Arizona. My dad said it was 102 on their patio (but that is a dry heat so I could stand that somewhat better).

My apologies for my post yesterday - I just had to get things out and process. And for you my whopping three followers (welcome Lindsay to following my blog) I don't mind if you read. Two of you are family (literally) and one is a sister - in Christ and in the sorority.

So I was wondering if it seems like sometimes God blesses some people more than others and wondered why that is. Like why is it that some people are having their dreams fulfilled a million times over and others they still haven't gotten there. Like here I am still not at a place I thought I'd be. Still going through the valley still wishing God would open a door for me someplace. I did finally figure out why it seems like it has taken so long. After I got fired in 2003 (to catch Lindsay and Linda up - I got fired for sharing my faith at the jail I taught at and well here it is 2009 and I have been underemployed) I did keep looking for teaching positions or school counseling positions. I never understood why I couldn't get back in - hello God was keeping those doors closed. Then I saw how He opened things up for me at Westwood College, but I knew when I was there that it was not where I was always going to be. That came true one May morning last year when I was interviewing and getting offered an adjunct position while subsequently unbeknownst to me until I got home and checked my voicemail, I was being let go from Westwood College. Then I did get to start in the fall at Navarro College and picked up 4 classes in the spring and May mini-mester and Summer Term 1. Just not summer term 2 - so I am like okay God help me here. I need I am scheduled for four classes in the fall and winter mini-mester. I also applied for a full time position as an academic advisor at the college. They had an opening last year that I interviewed for, but did not get. But I figured out that maybe it was not the right timing for that.

It just seems sometimes like some things fall into place easier for some people and for others not so much. They have to keep going through stuff before things happen and you wonder why. That's what I feel like. I want things to happen for me. I don't want to always be going through this. I want a chance.

I am a little nervous. I do believe that next week they will be looking at the applications for the academic advising position that they have at Navarro College. I really want to get called for an interview.

Okay so today's song lyrics are appropriate then. Allan Hall who plays piano in Selah sent me part of the lyrics. I e-mailed him back and asked him about the song. He's currently with the rest of Selah doing album promotion on the west coast. By the time he gets back and gets around to checking his e-mail I will have all questions answered lol.

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All things work for our good
though sometimes we can't see how they could
struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blinds us to the truth

Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim, and you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

He sees the master plan
And He holds our future in His hands
So don't live as those who have no hope
All our hope is found in Him

We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and the last
And like a tapestry He's weaving you and me to someday be just like Him

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand trust His heart